2025 Freely Tomorrow
2025-12-29
书籍
19 本
- 7本 人文
- 美丽新世界
- 地下室手记
- 饱食穷民
- 玫瑰的名字
- 爱你就像爱生命
- 小王子
- 局外人
- 3本 通识
- 艺术的故事
- 荒木飞吕彦的漫画术
- 性别战争
- 9本 大众心理
- 非暴力沟通
- 也许你该找个人聊聊
- 爱的五种语言
- 蛤蟆先生去看心理医生
- 当下的力量
- 情感勒索
- 沟通的艺术
- 欲望的演化
- 分手心理学
游戏
只列出有趣的。12 部
- A Way Out
- Halo: Reach
- A Short Hike
- ANIMAL WELL
- Leap Year
- The Case of the Golden Idol
- Raging Loop
- VA-11 HALL-A:Cyberpunk Bartender Action
- Type Help
- DREDGE
- Little Kitty, Big City
- 宇宙机器人无线控制器使用指南
影视
电影 42 部,其中值得一看的为以下 28 部
- Halloween (1978)
- It’s a Wonderful Life (1946)
- To Be or Not to Be (1942)
- 一一 (2000)
- The Bridges of Madison County (1995)
- The Wicker Man (1973)
- Double Indemnity (1944)
- Sunset Boulevard (1950)
- The Man Without A Past (2002)
- Chinatown (1974)
- The House That Jack Built (2018)
- The Lost Weekend (1945)
- The Third Man (1949)
- Eyes Wide Shut (1999)
- Taxi Driver (1976)
- Wild Strawberries (1957)
- Annie Hall (1977)
- 東京教父 (2003)
- Vertigo (1958)
- 牯嶺街少年殺人事件 (1991)
- Zootopia2 (2025)
- 切腹 (1962)
- 七人の侍 (1954)
- Breathless (1960)
- burning (2018)
- clerks (1994)
- dogma (1999)
- Quand vient l’automne (2024)
剧集5部,都很不错
- Yes Minister (1982)
- True Detective (2014)
- ジョジョの奇妙な冒険 Part4 ダイヤモンドは砕けない (2016)
- Scott Pilgrim Takes Off (2023)
- 無能なナナ (2020)
关于电影还有一则年度轶事,是和一位朋友见面,聊到最近看的电影
- 几天前看了《一一》,还行- 导演是谁- 杨德昌- 啊!居然就叫yīyī吗,我一直以为那是破折号!两段印象深刻的对白
1 from True Detective S1E1
- Look. I consider myself a realist, all right, but in philosophical terms, i'm what's called a pessimist.- Um, OK. What's that mean?- Means I'm bad at parties.- Huh. Let me tell you. You ain't great outseide of parties either.- I think human consciousness was a tragic misstep in evolution. We became too self-aware. Nature created an aspect of nature separate from itself. We are creatures that should not exist by natural law.- Huh. That sounds God-fucking-awful, Rust.- We are things taht labor under the illusion of having a self, this accretion of sensory experience and feeling, programmed with total assurance that we are each somebody. Well, in fact, everybody's nobody.- I wouldn't go around spouting that shit, I was you. People around here don't think that way. I don't think that way.- I think the honorable thing for species to do is deny our programming, stop reproducing, walk hand in hand into extinction. One last midnight, brothers and sisters opting out of raw deal.- So...what's the point of getting out bed in the morning?- I tell myself I bear witness, but the real answer is that it's obviously my programming, and I lack the constitution for suicide.- My luck, I picked today to get to know you. Three months, I don't hear a word from you, and--- You asked.- Yeah, and now I'm begging you to shut the fuck up.2 from clerks 'Lamentation' Chapter
- Salsa shark. We're gonna need a bigger boat. Man goes into cage, cage goes into salsa. Shark's in the salsa. Our shark. Oh, what? What's with you, man? You haven't said anything for like 20 minutes. What the hell's your problem?- This life.- This life?- Why do I have this life?- Have some chips. You'll feel better.- I'm stuck in the pit, working for less than slave wages, working on my day off. The goddamn steel shutters are closed. I deal with every backward-ass fuck on the planet. I smell like shoe polish. My ex-girlfriend is catatonuic after fucking a dead guy, and my present girlfriend has sucked 36 dicks.- 37.- My life's in the shitter right now, and if you don't mind, I'd like to stew a bit.(- You open?)- Yeah... That's all bullshit, man. You know what the real problem here is?- I was born?- You should shit or get off the pot.- I should shit or get off the pot?- Yeak. You should shit or get off the pot.- What the hell are you talking about.- I'm talking about this thing you have, this inability to improve your station in life- Fuck you.- It's true, man. You sit there and blame life for dealing you a cruddy hand, never once accepting responsibility for the way your situation is.- What responsibility?- All right. If you hate this job and the people and the fact that you have to come in on your day off, why don't you quit?- Like it's that easy.- It is. You just up and quit. There's other jobs. They pay better money. You're bound to be qualified for at least one of them. So what's stopping you?- Leave me alone.- Oh. You're comfortable. right? This is a life of convenience for you and any attemp to change it would shatter the pathetic microcosm you've fashioned for yourself.- Hah, like your life's any better.- I'm satisfied with my situation for now. You don't hear me complaining. You, on the other hand, have been bitching all day.- Thank you. Why don't you go back to the video store?- It's the same thing with Veronica.- Oh, now leave her out of this.- You date Veronica because it's convenient and she's low maintenance. But meanwhile, all you ever do is talk about Caitlin. You carry a torch for a girl you dated in high school. In high school, for God's sake, you're 22.- Leave me alone. If you want Caitlin, the talk to Veronica, and be with Caitlin. If you want Veronica, then be with Veronica. But don't pine for one and fuck the other. Man, if you weren't such a fucking coward--- If I wasn't such a fucking coward--You know, it must be so great to have this ability to simplify things the way you do.- Am I right or what?- You're wrong. Things happened today, all right? Things that probably ruined my chances with Caitlin.- Oh, what, the dead guy? She'll get over fucking a dead guy. Shit, my mom's been fucking a dead guy for 30 years. I call him Dad.- Caitlin and I can't be together. It's impossible.- Melodrama coming from you seems about as natural as an oral bowel movement.- What? What do you want me to say? "Yes, some of the things you're saying are true"? But that's the way things are, they're not going to change.- Make them change.- I can't, all right? Jesus, will you leave me alone? I can't make changes in my life like that. If I could, I would. But I don't have the ability to risk the comfortable situations on the big money and fabulous prizes.- Who are you kidding? You can so.- Jesus H. Christ! I can't!- So what? You're gonna sit there and be miserable 'cause you don't have the guts to face change?其他
人生第一台相机,已拍将近三千张。最开始只有一个要求:便携。准备27mm饼干镜头用到卖相机,几个月后还是不够用了买了个变焦。穷三代。



成都。主要是去见朋友。休闲宜居的城市。
昆明。没什么好说的,和记忆中的没差。
济南。交通很不方便。吃到了传说中的把子肉,咸的五花肉。饭菜份量很大。泉水确实润。去了山东博物馆。
邢台。市博物馆、达活泉公园。一座美丽的城市。
郑州。郑州海洋馆、龙湖湿地公园。前者有北极狼和北极狐,第一次见所以印象深刻,但他们被关的心情不太好,趴着不动。黄昏的时候在农业路骑车,感觉很棒。本来想去市博物馆但没去成,希望下次有机会。

作为一种放松的手段,每天会边看蜡笔小新边写字,字幕跳出来什么就写什么,基本是玩,不想特地学结构和运笔,一张张翻过去,至少手变稳些了,就算胜利

想着画速写,但由于没把时间安排好,总是忘记,导致还没开始,也有 不知道该画什么 又 没什么想画 的原因在。归根结底,可能是潜意识里仍然对绘画抱有一种功利性的态度——希望自己画好 && 希望是完美的速写本。最好是像写字一样,把这个当作娱乐和训练专注的事情。
有件比较好玩的事情别人看见速写本问是不是买了本 Bible。
四月底拥有了第一台 Macbook Air M3 24+512,大半年过去还是爱不释手,至今为止最喜欢的电子产品。
给电吉他添置了监听音箱JoYo DA35,原来一直是综合效果器接入监听耳机。又买了条typeB-typeC数据线,接到电脑进行内录。山姆买了个没有扶手的矮椅,练琴很合适。
本打算组台PC,但存储涨得很凶,最终买了PS5 Slim,至少能玩五年。手柄让人惊艳。
下半年开始锻炼,有氧是爬楼,每天半小时左右,最开始四十几层逐渐增加到了六十几层,但膝盖损伤不算小,至今为止因为膝盖疼休息两周了,估计之后会买个椭圆机。力量训练不是很在乎,常规的俯卧撑和深蹲,比较随缘。下辈子长高点,保证猛猛练成三角头那种理想型,指理想中试图成为的类型。
结语
今年算是很重要的一年,经历了很多事,年中有两三个月可以称得上是人生最痛苦的阶段,坐在书桌前默默流泪成为日常。好点就约着朋友们出门,九月中旬有天去动物园拍动物,另一天吃过饭去网吧打了一晚上三角洲之后,勉强算得上痊愈。
标题就取自恢复过程中发现的一首歌,尤其喜欢这段歌词
心ごと体ごと 全部脱ぎ捨てたこの魂無くしてた熱情が 指先から流れ出した恐れずに求めれば それは未来を変える Revolutionこころ Knock Knock Knock不思議 Trick Trick Trick奇跡は起きるFreely Tomorrow遇到打击,伤心是必然的,不压抑、不强迫自己马上恢复、不一直沉溺。
拥有强烈的情绪时,对其他事物的认知是失调的,其实,外面有着关心你的朋友,有爱你的人,有解决问题的许多办法,但最重要的是,自己愿不愿意开门走出去,如果不愿意,不管多少人敲门都无法帮助你。就像宫崎英高说的,“门无法从这一侧打开。”
痛苦同时也是一个契机去反思,学习,不要被磨灭希望。
如果没有这些痛苦,我无法从自己身上发现这么多从来没有意识到的缺点,更不可能有热情去看那么多大众心理学相关的东西,我意识到自己在沟通,边界管理和情绪管理方面是有问题的。
- 沟通。对于人与人的关系我长久以来的看法是“两个人只要愿意好好沟通,就没有多大问题”,但事实上沟通只是诸多环节之一而已,每个人遇到事情处理逻辑和策略都不一样,如果对方不想听,那么我以为的沟通和自我展现,就变成了一种自以为是的暴力输出。
- 边界。这是最深刻的方面,直到这两天还在更新见解。不在此赘述。
- 情绪管理。一直以为自己是个非常冷静且情绪稳定的人,但其实在那之中隐含着的是对生活的冷漠和感情的压抑。最初,我并没有办法接受自己情绪激动的样子,因为这让我对一直以来的自我认知产生了割裂和迷茫感,我想尽快恢复,觉得我不应该是这样,最终越来越痛苦,之后我无奈地承认了自己就是个玉玉狂,情况反而开始缓解了。情绪稳定并不一定是好的,情绪成熟才是。情绪成熟就是接受自己的情绪,承认自己也会无力,与其共存,如果不想被情绪摆布这才是该做的第一步。此外还有一点,我有时的认知会自动负面化事实,发作的时候会陷入一种追求非此即彼的确定性的偏执之中。
来年目标
- 通识书太少,只有三本,争取六本
- 探究某行职业,解决温饱就行
- 做事专注 && 屏蔽杂乱的思绪 && 心情轻松一点
- 拒绝所有被动接收的互联网信息,目前除了移动端b站其他没有了
